[. awae from it all .] [. one smile hides a thousand tears .]

2005-12-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

DEAD.

2005-12-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

DEAD.

shopping!

2005-11-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

headed town with the tumtus! ((: had hell loads of fun! esp at subway,choosing e food! at first planned ta watch jus like heaven but in e end didnt. as usual neoprints at heeren! took two times. E 2nd machine sucks bIG time! e pics were nt nice nd e deco sucks. i m talkin abt e new machine w e pole or wadeva eu called tt. but inside thr we had soo much laughter! den paragon dropped by ta sae hi ta cndy. den crumpler shop, toy r us! =D we went topshop. anelie went home. den me& s went ta wisma. bought 3 tops at giordano. den topshop, w e advice of S i bought another one mre top!! ii wanted ta by one more skirt bt yeah had ta hold myself bck. hahahs. (: maybe another dae. nid ta save up first! wanna shop mre. =Pp

com broke dwn

2005-11-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

it has been ages ii blog. my com was sent fer repair at HP. took one whole week. blabla.
sat- band investiture. emmcee w norfi! was fun chattin w alvin&brenda. (:
sun- went dwn ta swim.watched POTTER; disappointing but CEDRIC was HOT!! =D
mondae-went ta sch w chuahuiyee. plaza mac ta study w ronald nd chuahuiyee too! but ii didnt study. =/
todae- sec one exco meeting at ngee ann. jus came bck. :)

iim getting stronger; no tears shed.
nth on my mind abt eu.
in confusion.
m ii out of love?
or
jus living in denial tt eu r still here?

at sch.

2005-11-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

ii am at sch w nayana nd rethinam nd many ppl fer sch open house!!!

now business nt so gud.

AES ROX!!

ii miss baboon.

worst dae.

2005-11-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

today worst day of my life! ii have nvr felt so lonely and empty before. hais.. at least ii managed ta spend our very last moment together. for e past few weeks ii haf been breaking dwn every now nd den. right nw it doesnt make much a diff. ii hadnt been slping. had diahorrea nd food poisoning! wth. so ii cudnt go out. it thinks its e steak at marche. ii went ta eat thr twice w eu! now gone are e happy days tt we spent together. ii cant survive. ii dunnoe if ii can stay strng fer a yr. ii hope we can make it through.

GOD BLESS MS.TAN.
ii pray that shes in a better place now. we miss eu ms.tan!
eu haf been a very patient,kind and forgiving teacher no matter wad. even ta naughty bunch of ppl like us in PDC. EU WILL BE MISSED!

ps: ppl whu haf been reallii thr fer me, THANK EU!

OBS.

2005-11-20T12:35:00.000+08:00

OBS. i wudnt sae ii enjoyed it very much to be honest. but ii did haf a great time despite all e sufferings! =/ ii aint gonna elaborate much. i landed in SHACKELTON with instructr CANDY, watch mates frm christ church;woodgroove& aes. watchmates;chua huiyee,liyi,mark,manfred frm aes; nasri,haiqal,teckyi.teckleong,ronald,melvin,xianing,vitthyah,ginny,jannah . we did flying fox! ii love it tho i was scared a lil at first. kayakking for almost half e dae! now sooper chaotta!! hahahs. <3 color="#ff0000">carried like a 10kg bag nd we trekked for morning till 5 or 6? many mnay mozzies nd sandflies nd ants! ii hated those! ended up eating buns nd biscuits every meal except two meals which we cooked rice nd noodles ourselves! now i HATE e sight of cookies, breakfast bars nd buns! =X didnt get much slp. raining heavily..my tent w liyi,huiyee collapsed and rain flooded in. in fact all tents! tho there were times wen we girls didnt get along so well, we all got along w e boys all e tyme. thank eu soo much ferr helpin us throughout e camp no matter wad. they were blarddi nice! had soo much laughter! =D tweety bird&scooby two!! hahhahs... swam in e quarry? sooper clear man e waterr!! last dae bought one polo-tee. shud haf bought mre! niwae, ii miss home nd my honey. three more days and my lonely days will start. ii dread those days. =( ii wish tears wud stop rolling everytime ii think abt e upcoming days wo eu.

SHERT ENTRY

2005-11-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

back frm OBS! will update soon! (;
ii love eu honey!
ii know its time ta part.
SIGH.

ltc

2005-11-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

first apologies for nt updating for soo long. been busy& ii think blogging is wearing my interest off..WOOTX! ii am bck frm LTC!! had soo much fun!! esp with BALDICIDE! =D. omega night was awesome! cnt wait ta ged all e pics. esp thanks to ALVIN,CHERYL,ALICAI,NATASHA,AMANDA,OLINA,PEILING,DARYL,YIZONG,LYNETTE; BALD BALANCE!! thank eu soo much for the fun&laughter! had fun werking w eu guys. regards ta instructr RUS too! rock on! okie. nw ii am bck.. but setting off for OBS tmr!! weees!! =) hais. ppl r jus happy nd excited abt camps nd all. but for me ii m breaking dwn ta pieces everydae. ii wish we haf more time. ii love eu to pieces. ii dread abt e upcoming days and months.. ii dun think ii can survive wo eu here. ps: anelie sorry girl! ii hope ta catch up w eu once iim bck. wanted ta msg eu bt lost ur number cox of new phne! eu take care! =))

saded.

2005-10-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

everythings over. including my life. my results cannot be any mre horrible. hias. nid ta buck up. this yr ii slacked alot. blarddii a lot. which iim nt supposed to do tt. =( ii dunnoe hw ta tell ma parents. SIGH. depressing. niwae,damn lazii ta update bt since berls nd anly asked me to, well here ii am! ii have been slping,eating,drinking,reading,goin out aftr e xam.. friday, washed e tables! tho it was tiring nd all but it was FUN!! 3/1 was organizing nd teamwork shined among us! (: niwae, went out. still looking for dress for mega nite or wadeva nite a LTC. mux wear dress for formal dinner. :( niwae, nth much. will update soon if iim nt so lazy! tc guys! good luck for those who r tking their Os esp. shakey,berls,lynne,shikin! =D

paper.

2005-10-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

gawd,EXAM EXAM!! honestly ii dunnoe y ii aint tt stressed...=S but reallii jus wanna get over w e papers and finished em asap! iim so nt hardwerkin at all for this whole sec.3 yr! wad happened ta me?!? tyme flies realli fast for 2005. 2mre mnths we r celebrtaing x'mas. nd after tt ii m sec4! niwae, ii wan ta go shoppin& spend mre tyme w eu! =D now mux focus on eoy 1st! one mre week nd ii m done! =)

bali bomb.

2005-10-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

eu noe some of us find it ironic when e ms.universe beauty peagents sae "WORLD PEACE.." wen they are asked wad is their wish or soemthin like that...but now somehow ii think everyone shud start wishing for world peace. ii am tokin abt BALI BOMB. ii jus cnt find any sense in bombing places. or in suiside bombers. maybe they do hav their own reasons. hais. =S bali has suffered much. bali practically get bombed for quite a number of times in a year ii guess. ii sympathise e ppl whu live there nd e ppl who were in e tragic or died. SIGH. there were parents ,grandparents,uncles,auties,cousins,brothers, sisters,girlfriends,boyfriends,wives,husbands of someone...kids& e foetus whu r in their mothers' womb who are totally innocent and jus wan ta come ta this world of someones' whu were at bali. =S its jus very saddening. we realli need more peace nd love on this earth.niwae, good luck for EOY guys! ;)

fell dwn.

2005-09-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

wad m i doin here? i am suppsoed ta be studyin at ma study table instead of blogging. =S gawd,i jus cnt help maself cumin online. this is bad. real bad. niwae, nth much ta update! went ta nayana' huse nd on ma wae bck..i was walkin ta e bus-top near westmall there. nd saw 176 so i ran for it. nd guess wad happened? I FELL DOWN. ma face on e ground. wad a sight! =X it was darn painful. ma knee&ma hand. lucky ma face nt disfigured. LOL. i jus wanted ta ged hum quick cox 176 intervals r v long. nd i fell..glenda ran ta pick me up den e 176 left nd another 176 was jus behind it. heck. ii shudnt have ran for it. I was lauging out afetr glenda picked me. i jus found myself so silly&stoopid. hahhas. =D tc guys nd study hard.

her face nd her heart (character) doesnt match. its a shame nd pity!

mike me cnt tke it anymore

2005-09-24T15:39:00.000+08:00

ii m emotionally damaged. honestly i cnt tke it anymore. =S
ii give up. i tried in hang in tho.
how many more days?
i cnt even study. hais. lost ma motivation.
ps: nie sista! thankiew for listenin ta me. yeaps. we r in same boat. love eu!

dwit.sake.

2005-09-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

okay. i tink theres something seriously wrng with blogger. e format isnt supposed ta be this wae.. posting,seeting,templates.,etc all jumbled up. or is this e new format for blogger?!? niwae, ii am supposed ta studying nw bt den again i had ta cum online ta do some sc stuff nd ended up blogging nd all tt. =S today, sooper shagged. slept almost throughout chem class..ma chem is a total flop! =/ now hatred nd anger are nt soo much inside me anymore. i guess i sounded pretty fierce on e previous entry! still somethings cnt be undone. DWIT is in s'pore. after sch went to lot1 ate sake sushi! i dun really like shushi nd all jap food bt 2dae it was darn filling! nd ii enjoyed it since theres no sashimi or raw stuff or FISH! well at least ii didnt eat em. shangx,me,dwit,anly,mainey,yings,wen,huiyi,ryan ate buffet. we sat there forr sooper long nd kept eating. ii was totally sleepy if nt i cud hav ate more!! LOL. sorry anly. if ma words were too hurting. didnt mean it babe! (: well,tho ii planned ta straight awae cum hum frm sch nd mug bt ii had a pretty gud dae w e girls nd ryan sicne shangx asked me&ii haven been hanging out w em for a long tyme! good night ppl! happy dreams. :))

ps: got eoy timetable todae. geo nd physics one same day!! r they mad? or jus wan us ta dig our brains??? it's a shame hw our exam timetables are mostly arranged!

I AHTE MA MUM

2005-09-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

anger&hatred are flooding in my heart right now.
y on earth did i even shed a tear in front of eu??!?! im such a stoopid loser.

GIVE ME A LIFE!
I HATE HER!

fun at cdans

2005-09-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY. ~ lallas. hahhas. ma gawd,ii had soo muchh fun this mrg!! (: thnks ta shiying,glenda,stephaine,atiqah. ii was really enoying myself out there..=D went ta sch bustop at 9 ta mit sy and e rest but onlii saw sy&chingliang so we went ta ah cheang huse! his sis so adorable!! den went bck ta sch again cox kenny's granddad&his driver were thr ta fetch us ta cdans country club. stef&glenda were late so yeah we left wo em! yadayadada..[alvin'susualwords] wanted ta ply bowling but all e lanes were packed w ppl! JEEX. it was only ten in e sooper early mrng!! ii m still getting my beauty slp at 10AM during holidaes. niwae, we waited cox e badminton court we booked starts at 12pm! okay so we spent time walking here nd there. had breakfast! ii highly recommend ppl nt ta eat e restaurant beside bowling alley there! e bao was blarddii cold nd small!! LOLs. but really lah. then around 12 glenda&atiqah arrived! we all went ta play e quest? e one where eu run around nd shoot ppl in e dark around the maze w the techno song blasting..yeah tt one! tt was ma 1st tyme so ii cnt recall e name. niwae, ii had soo much fun&laughter there tho ma gun wasnt werking! blarddii hell. den e two morons at counter didnt wan ta do anything abt it! nvm..ii pretended tt my gun was werkin nd had fun! worthwhile still. ((: blablabla..played badminton..den left at 1.. headed ta plaza wo chingliang,kenny&cheang. ate at sakura. sooper full bt e tom yam was darn satisifying! (= plaza was CROWDED! cox of e superstar thing. every level was ppl-ized? LOL. niwae, went ta buy bubble tea nd went hum. e rest stayed bck at plaza for superstar xcept shangx whu left after me for dinner.

ps: DOORMAT II MANAGED TA STAY FREE FRM FAST FOOD.! hahahhas. ma 1st reaction wen they asked me wad i wan i said, " can we NT hav fast food pls? " =DD

2005-09-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

ii LOVE my

tiNINI
alVINVIN
amiRARA
rasyiQAQA
norFIFI

=D

tke gud care guys & hope eu all njoying e holidaes! study hard!!

2005-09-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

lets c wad ii can sae abt 2dae..hmm..nth much..headed ta library to study alone. managed ta finis some of e MCQs physics tys. (: saw char,yings and kris,mark nd chingliang? den headed ta causeway point ta walk around. den jus came bck home. totally shagged. nowadaes, no mood. prefer ta be alone.

tchers dae. taufik

2005-09-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

gawd,ii am sooper lazy to type. =/ 1st,happy tchers'dae ta all e tchers!! ii have been soo pissed w some insensitive human beings lately.. niwae, todae celebration. it was TIRING! ii ran arund e sch soo many times and so sweaty.. ii was kinda nervous abt e vid...but o well, it was okay. the plan was gud tho there were hiccups. one thing fer sure our aes SCs are capable. alfy sang well. after celebration rushed off ta plaza w tini,doormat,ice-kachang& future mp to eat. hahahs. ii totally stopped eating halfwae..suddenly tiredness washed over me. but ii made maself finish e food for e FIRST TIME in ma lyfe..LOL.. aiya, didnt wan ta waste...niwae, came bck ta sch fer e seminar at kallang theatre and there were s00 many schs there. i tot it was for AES only. i was wrng obviously... ii was dead tired...tryin to stay awake up by tokin at tini&doormat. when ii looked at the programme,ii was kinda surprised ta see "LIVE performance by taufik,e sg idol" but tt didnt improve ma mood or wadsoever. maybe if tt was CLAY AIKEN, it will definetly make me happy. LOL. ii m nt a BIG sg idol fan but ii admit tt taufik does have a gud voice. (: he sang "one last" & "i dream" ..tea reception..bus bck ta sch...in the bus,NORFI entertained me&tini&doormat.. we cudnt stopp laughing!! my goodness!! hahahhas..1st tyme ii ever laughed wholeheartedly. thanks girl! eu rock!! =D walked hum. ii like ta tke walks,nt under e sun of course... it makes me relax,calm& ii love tt feeling. =) make me think of wads happening and wad has happened. reflections.. ii guess ma entry is quite draggy. niwae, sry shiying ii m nt able ta mke it ta sentosa tmr. both ma knees still hurt. =( HOLIDAE IS IN! but its study time. =S

ps: tini nd doormat dun wry so much. the plan todae was superb! =D

quiz

2005-08-31T18:24:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

hahhas. find this quite true lah xcept fer some. =D ..shall update more lata. jus got bck frm plaza nd im lazing in fnt of e com. shooweer...

2005-08-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

in fact ii have got quite a lot of things ta sae. but ii m nt in de mood. ii am having a terrible stomach pain which make me lose ma mood. =S shall update soon. tctc!!

fake friendship.

2005-08-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

don't pretend to be my friend.
dun think tt ii dun hear things bck.
such a PITY tt ii believed all ur werds nd tot our friendship was for REAL.
ii am truly disgusted by ur mask!

chem test!

2005-08-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

this week had been so so busy! packed with tests and ed.board stuff ta do. ii mux realli thank e ed.board members whu helped..THANK EU! sorry if ii lost ma temper. we had soo much ta do nd everything was on me. =S niwae, ii gt bck ma physics test paper..ii feel so gay!! LOLs.. :) hahhas. howeva iim gonna fail ma chem so badly..section c i dun even noe a single thing. it wud be a miracle if ii pass. didnt study due to writing e reports ferr those moron whu nvr do. nd e things tt came out were taught on e daes wen ii was absent. =/ wtf. well nid ta buck up. mux mugmug. went bck ta sch in de mrng ta paint e SC room w yeewen,shiying,tina,haris,jerome,huiyi&alvin. den left sch arun 1 fer anther plce. mr.baboon we gt e rings yea? ii wan mre expensive ones bt ii dun like e thick type.. lol. =Pp..tctc!! french controle on tuesdae. wish me luck ta pass.

......bleah

2005-08-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

let me ged ta e point. eu made me dislike eu!
no turning back. over means over.
gotta mug ma french.
CNT WAIT FOR E SEPT HOLIDAE TA COME!!!
tata..

spec bg founders dae

2005-08-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

ii was absent frm sch ferr 2 daes..so it was lyk havin one whole week off frm sch after e national dae. soo SICK..=/ in fact,ii am not recovered fully yet. planned ta mug while ii was sick at hum bt ii failed ta. =( WTH! somethin is wrng w me!! ii jus cnt focus. ii nid motivation..motivation.MOTIVATION!!!. okok. wanna ged into ma dream JC. LOL. =D niwae, ii had a tiff w eu. =S forged abt tt. 2dae founders' dae. it was a total bore. ooo. ii got ma new glasses!! hehehes. went ta collect at takashimaya on sundae.ii gt ma nike sling bag too last week. no mre $$$. hahhas. wanna play tennis again.nd sentosa. no tyme. booo!! iim outta here. nid ta mug. tata.

HAPPY BURFDAE TA KENRICK HO!!

happy belated 1/2 yr anni ta us!

change skin

2005-08-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

changed e skin.was kinda bored w e other.wanna scream something, BITCHING BEHIND PPL'S BACK IS UTTERLY DISGUSTING!!! ESP IF THEY ARE UR FRENS.. things werent right between us for e past few daes. BUT we solved em tho it took us quite some tyme. love ya baby&thnks ferr alwaes toleratin ma attitude. ((: ytd ii cudnt go sentosa w shiying,yw,ying,char,calvin,mark etc.. cox of e mind-mappin course. booo!! but den again,e course aint so bad! ii enjoyed. it wasnt boring at all w e lecturer,nayana,glenda,huiyee,stef,winnie etc..here are some pics taken frm SC investiture.
gawd, ii am so sick. runny nose;fever;cough. =X

@#!#$^!

2005-08-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

I HATE THEM!!!
@!@!#%@!

:(

2005-08-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

i am numb.literally NUMB.
hais. lost ma motivation.
ii dun njoy doin things tt ii used ta like.
wth is wrng w me!
like anelie said,somethin mux have made an impact on me.
true?
ii dunnoe. ii wish ii have e ans ferr it.
ii made mistakes.
ii know ii cant un-do those.
SIGH.
im gonna concentrate on ma studies.
i yearn fer e laughter ii had last yr.
tke care ppl.

laala

2005-07-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

ii am back frm camp!! hahhas. miss ma frens here esp ANELIE. (:
anywae, had fun tho i cnt stand the stoopid ants at cmpfire!!
hahhas. mud spa. sooper reluctant wen ii hav to lie dwn. but after all ii find it fun.
ii was afraid cox iii hav sensitive skin esp ma face.
anywae, ii LOVE e beam..e one eu climb den walk straight nd jump dwn.
THAT WAS AWESOME!
shiiying was sooper cool w e dance steps. and huiyi with e cheer.
EVERYONE WAS COOL! =D
take care ppl.

ps: those peeps whu tagged me wen ii was awae, THANKS!

2005-07-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

ii FIANLLY have e tyme ta update. this week has been a handful. havent gt much time ta cum online..busybusy. xchange programme w e thai t-chers frm assumption college. ii had fun w em. they were sooper nice nd GERNEROUS. went arun citilink,merlion nd all those places w shiiying,me,pearl,rui,donald,reth,ice-kachang. had SOO much fun. =D all ma troubles were swept awae ferr a few hours. anywae, had been busybusy w e SC investiture preparation tho ii dun hav tyme ta help ot tt much. But i have ma own part..im doin e slides so yeah. ii guess all the SCs are stressed nd tired..guys tke good care esp e Sec.3..e cmp is sooper near!! so DUN eu guys fall sick!! anywae, ii betta go nw ta clear ma humwerk..camp is on tuesdae!! (: im darn happy abt it. sumthing tt ii actually look ferward ta.

soo much ferr e friendship. =/

2005-07-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

argh! ii m so angry w tt someone.

over.

2005-07-18T17:59:00.000+08:00

too late.
its over.
hais.
ma whole body is aching.
iim xhausted.
ii gve up totally.

5th month

2005-07-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

finally sumthing positive tt iim postin. LOL.

aanywae, ii am glad we made it through so far despite thousands of quarrells tt we have every single dae.
we are 5 months old honey.
[belated]
((((:

okay. we still quarrel. ALOT.
but nvm..ii will hang in thr. hahhas. sorrry ferr being harsh everytime ta eu.

anywae, TA THOSE PPL WHU HAS NTH TA DO, LEAVE MA FREN ALONE. STOP BITCHING BEHIND HER BCK!!! SHUT UR HOLES UP IF EU HAVE NTH BETTA TA DO THAN TA SPREAD SOME RUMOURS. DO SOME CONSTRUCTIVE WERK PLS!! EU WILL GED UR RETRIBUTION! GOT E GUTS TA SAE? DEN HAVE SOME COURAGE TA SAE IT IN FRNT OF E PERSON!

yeaps. ii m dne w wad ii wanna sae. buh byes!! tke care ppl. =D

pissed

2005-07-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

ii am soo fcuking pissed nw.
a part of me is fallin slowly.
iim exhausted of everything.
no mood ta carry on.
soo much ferr everything.
ma werld full of emotions.

wad mii tinkin?

2005-07-08T18:23:00.000+08:00

its betta ta gve than ta tke.

hais. wad on earth m ii thinkin again??
o m g. it cnt be.
iim tryin ta shake e stoopid tot off ma mind.
=/

sad.

2005-07-06T17:01:00.000+08:00

jus reached hum..yawnn. darn slppy. ytd slpt ferr 2 hrs onli..e whole night was filled w pain,sadness nd tears.. y cnt she jus respect me a lil bit?!? ii do understand hw eu feel bt god, pls open ur eyes wide nd c wads e reality. at least SPARE A TOT FOR HW I FEEL.. IIM SURE EU WUDNT LIKE IT IF EU WERE IN MA SHOES OR SOMEONE DOES TT TA EU!. SO, STOP DOIN WADEVA EU R TRYING TA DO...COX DAMAGES HAD BEEN MADE...MORE II CNT TKE !! . GEEX. o well, wadeva. a BIG thank eu ta anelie,shiying,charmaine,dwittie,glenda,nayana! thanks ferr being thr. :)
ii noe wad ii nid ta do and all. so yeaps...yet here ii am jus hoping ferr a betta dae. sighs. anywae, char cheer up girl!! dun let anything stp eu frm achieving ur goals. tke care ppl. ii m out ta showerr.

sad

2005-07-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

iim back. it has been quite sometimes tt ii update.. haven been feeling happy lately. really unhappy nd dwn. ii dunnoe why. its lyk out of sudden, ma soul or ma happiness has been sucked out. :(( ii nvr tok ta ma baby well too. ii jus kept quiet even wen hes w me..so unlike of me. =/ wad has happened ta me?!?! okay nd yeah ger, maybe ii have changed. but ta be wad kind? ii dunnoe. so elaborate pls. cux ii dunnoe wad did wrng. nd even if ii did, it wasnt intentional. sorry. ma apologies. nd eu, pls bear w ma stupid mood or temper or wadeva iim goin thru rite nw. thank eu ferr being thr wen ii broke dwn. :) anywae, timetable changed. new teachers. nth much. will update soon. tke care..happy youth dae hurs. =p

haissss

2005-07-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

hais.
ferstly, ppl out thr.
ii am sorry if ii had been so caught up in ma own werld.
ii am sorry if ii eva offended eu guys or anything.
everything isnt intentional.
ii dunnoe wads goin on.
or wads in ma heart anymre.
ger, thank eu so much ferr tellin me.

off to camp.

2005-06-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

is everything goin to be e same again?
niwaes,ii m off ta Y-camp challenge for the disabled ppl.
at aes.
ii will miss all of eu.
esp. anelie,shakey,glenda.
nd eu.
take care ppl.
:)

ps: anly, ii haven tok to eu ferr so long. sry. thx ferr e msg todae!

written by me.

2005-06-22T15:49:00.000+08:00

ii wan e sun ta shine again.
this week hasnt been pleasant.
it is jus horrible.
throbbin headaches
&ma heart swelling.
cant shake e awful thoughts inside ma head.
paranoid? maybe ii am.
cuz it has been so long.
so long.

ps: thx shakey,camool,lynne ferr e tags. :)
pps: pauline, it was a gud game.

`its breakin me apart.

2005-06-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

sleepless nigghts.
tossings and turnings.
thoughts clouded ma mind.
sighs nd tears fill e nights.

wahhaah

2005-06-18T21:24:00.000+08:00

niwae, had a quite a normal except a surprise in de afternoon.
didnt xpect a person lyk eu wud sae those things.
but sorry.
it wnt werk. nd ii noe.
ii wish eu wud jus gve up
cox ii noe in e end eu wud end up hurting urself.
ii dun wan tt ta happen. ii wan ta stay frens w eu still.
anywae, ii tok ta my baby 2dae! 2 tymes!
=D well 1st tyme was okie,
nd e 2nd tyme ii dunnoe wad happend. =/
okay...tuition tuition tuition fer 3 damn hrs!
x.x

ps: charr it was a very nice chat! =)
ciao! off to do humwerk. hopefully.

e poem by me.

2005-06-17T20:27:00.000+08:00

everynite eu are haunting me.
eu are lingering in every tot of mine.
it is tearing me apart.
or ii am alrdy torn.
too much to bear it.
1 week to end the nightmares.
jus 1 week.
or maybe not.
ii miss eu.

ymca meeting.

2005-06-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

haix.. went ferr briefing at YMCA.
breakfast w shiying,hilary at mac.
den meet e YMCA guy.
discussed.
went ta wisma&far east w shiying.
tried on sum clothes. ii looked damn furnni! =X
came hum. shiying came overr.
did e camp planning. e icebreakers done.
eu called. =D
iim happy. but ii wasnt THAT happy.
ii dunnoee. maybe becux ii missed eu too much.
orr due ta wadeva ii was thinkin ytd nite.
niwae,ii m dying here.
more brain crackin due ta sum irresponsible arseholes!

4th mon 2geda

2005-06-15T12:12:00.000+08:00

damn! cbox is dwn.
happy belated 4th month ta us!! ((:
ii love eu honey
&ii m missing eu lyk crazii.
eu r still awae. still gotta ta tok ta eu on our special dae.
we still fought. hahas..so darn stoopid.
but made up in no tyme huhs! =D
niwae,ii betta start studyin nw.
ii cnt do last min humwrk.
gt camp. hoooo!!
buh byes!!

happy 6th month anni ta nie&her hubby!!

gym swim

2005-06-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

mrning tuition..
lunch&vaccum e huse nd huse chores...=D
headed ta gym..ii nid excercise!!
if nt ma body is becummin BIGGER! =X
went ta swimm after tt.
dinnerr.
teevee.
goin ta slp soon.
ma legs r killin mii&ma eyes verii painful.
eu r cuming bck tmr nitex!! =DD
but stayin ferr a nite onli.. =(
buh byess!!

dwittie.

2005-06-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

woke up sooper late in de morning. washed up den 2dae no tuition. wootx! =D den changed nd rite iim on ma wae ta plaza ta meet nie&shiiying! took 190 den headed twn ta meetd dwit nd kenrick hoho! hahhas.. niwae, we walked..lunch at cine;long john. den ken came. dwitx hasnt changed a bit. shes still as bubbly as eva..ii will miss eu sweets! niwae, we went ta heeren;took neoprints. dey r pretty. =) wisma..gt ma roxy wallet thr. didnt plan ta buy at 1st. wasnt even in e mood ta ged one. but e wallet attracted mii nd it was kinda cheap so ii grabbed it! =D thx nie ferr lendin e crd. pacific plaza.far east. den w hugged dwit nd goodbyes. boohoo.=(( ii headed hum w sy nd ma mum,bro&sis. tts all. overall, ii had a gud dae w nie,ken,sy&dwitx. we shud c each other mre.

ps: thx dwitx ferr e prezzie!

ta ma 4eva ganger,maine.tho iim nt alwaes thr ferr eu..ii hope eu noe ii will be here alwaes weneva eu nid mii. do tke care. ii miss e gud old daes. ii jus wanna sae eu r alwaes ma gnger,girl.

Take A Minute Girl Come Sit Down
And Tell Us What's Been Happening
In Your Face I Can See The Pain
Don't You Try To Convince Us That You're Happy
Girl, I Can Tell You've Been CryingAnd You Needing Somebody To Talk To
I'm Your Girl, You're My Girl, We're You're Girls
Don't You Know That We Love You? -destiny child.

fark it.

2005-06-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

fcuk. jus stab mii. happy?

picx

2005-06-09T13:15:00.000+08:00

took these picx on e "movie marathon jus ferr e tumtus" dae. =D e bckground isnt tt fab but its okay. we were plain lazy ta go twn. uh huh.. love e tumtus ta e pieces. btw, anly thx ferr e pics. haix. ii jus tok ta eu ol. y do we have ta be like tis huh? ii guess eu were jus in bad mood. aniwae, iim sry too. enuff of tt, niwae, ii like tt welcome ta thailand pic. hhahax..anelie eu r SOO furnni. is tt egypt? or being an elephant? =D
ps: ii aint happy w e sizes of e photos.

mvie marathon.

2005-06-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

let mii c hw ii shud start tokin abt ma dae. morning had tuition. Actually, ii planned ta hav mvie marathon w ma tumtus nd ma close frens. But decided ta postpone it ta sum other dae cuz ma mum will be hum nd thr cnt b too many ppl. So in de end it was jus ferr THE TUMTUS!! Finally, we spent tyme 2geda. ii had soo much fun in e bus, at e bustp, while tkin neoprints..it wasnt actually a mvie marathon if eu call it fer real. jus rented 2 vcds: teenage drama queen&white noise. wanted mean girls bt out of stock. ii ran dwn ta minimart ta ged snacks! the 3 of us onlii watched e lindsay lohan flick. anelie went hum shertly after e mvie. ii understand tt eu cnt stay fer long. no worries. :) nd jeex. ii was kinda pissed cuz ii cudnt watch white noise w shhit-ying. BUt ma mum didnt allow mii ta watch ghost mvie or any horror show. ferr god's sake it is mii whus watching!!! wad the hell.. ii felt kinda bad towards shiying cuz we were kinda xcited ta watch it. srry girl. so yea, anelie we didnt ged ta scare ourselves.den we ended up watchin 50 first dates. den chi show. den finis watchin 50 1st dates den chi show again. eu msg-ed mii ta cum ol. so ii went nd guess wad? ii had a tiff w eu.heck.ii fcukin hate it.. probably my fault. ii jus logged out wo letting eu ta speak. haix. niwe, sy went hum. nd nw ii jus emailed eu. it was a gud dae cuz ii had ta send tyme w ma sunshines, ANELIE&SHIYING. :))

ma bebe DWIT is cumin bckk!! wooots!! =D

1st dae tuition

2005-06-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

ROT at hum e whole dae in frnt of com,teevee&books.. well at least ii did sumthing constructive in de morning. ii had tuition!! ii noe its weird ta be happy ta b havin tuition.=S ma teacherr came overr. ii hadnt hav tuition ferr soo long alrdy. in fact yrs. nd guess wad? he taught mii frm 9.30am ta 1pm!! it was non-stop. ii didnt even move frm ma chairr. nd mii, ii tot it was like 2 or 2&a half hrs. LOLs. iim glad ii did focus altho at sumtymes ma mind will drift sumwhr bt in e end able ta collect back ma tots. =] so at least ii didnt waste ma whole dae doin nth. ii READ. READ & READ. hahahx..=D nd yes, ii gotta ta tok ta eu 2dae again. ma sista is superr cold hearted. ii had ta beg her ta let mii use e com ta tok ta eu. ii was pathetic. but well, ii m elated since eu were able ta tok ta mii longer than e last tyme.. :)) goin ta texas huh? ii m missing eu baby.so pls cum baq soon. niwae, iim looking 4ward ta tmrr. e TUMTUS DAE!! love euu 2 ta e pieces!!

ps: DWIT MAKE SURE EU CUM HUM SWEETS. II WILL BE WAITING!!!
pps: ii changed skin. ii like this. iim empty wo eu here. =(

4thdae

2005-06-05T10:38:00.000+08:00

[/cont'd]
omg!! god!! hhahax...i cudnt wipe tt smile off ma face rite now. =)) now ma face hurts..but ii dun care. iim e happiest ger on earth now. at that very moment. =DDD ...he msged mii ta go online ta tok ta him. hes online!! he msg-ed mii!! gawd. =)) ii have been like waiting ferr a decade. now finally.hes now in ohio. haha..if anyone were ta shoot mii,ii wud be happy ta die. jeex. hahahax..ii had gone crazii.

sigh. its onlyy e 4th dae. jeex.. wad on earth is wrng w mii!! iim dying here. thinking of eu soo much dae nd night. ii haven been slping. =( pls contact mii asap. ii tot 3 weeks was nth at 1st& ii cud sail thru...but nw ii noe ii cnt..ii m so empty wo eu here.. sigh.

ps: thank eu shakey!! ii owe eu..=)

pps: hey tumtus, lookin 4ward ta tuesdae!!

2nd dae

2005-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

thanks shakey! :) tml heading ta e library w glenda ta ged books. woohoo! iim ACTUALLY happy ta go ta e library. niwae,shudnt hab slpt so early ytd cuz ii missed ta reply ur msg since eu r using websms. darn it!! nw waiting ferr email,msg or wadeva frm eu. hope eu r having fun. =) ii jus felt soo empty. suddenly. maybe cux of e holis or cux eu r awae. guud night!

sadness.

2005-06-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

wad has cum over me? Its nt even an hour tt he has left fer overseas. nd ii m missing him soo much alrdy. ii m all smiles after eu called mii frm e airport b4 boarding e plane. den sadness slowly seeps in. SIGH. 3 weeks. ii will use this tyme ta do constructive werk. iim still at loggerheads w ma mum. iim gonna stay at hum ferr this 3 weeks ta make up ferr nt stayin at hum ferr e past weeks..take care ppl! :)

haiss.

2005-05-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

ii m gettin sick nd tired of havin arguments with ma mum. ii wan ta quit all these. its partly ma fault at e same tyme y cant she jus at least try ta understand. all ii eva nid is a listening ear. nt a machine which shoots 24/7. =S Niwae, went out w eu ta queenswae ta ged addidas shoebag ferr ma sis burfdae prezzie. den we dunnoe where ta go so jus took 198 ta jurong point. long ride. den we looked arun nd ate there. came hum at 6.30. ma mum starts her daily nagging again. niwae,she wasnt happy abt mii tokin ta a guy on e phne. ferr god's sake it was onlii 5 mins nd we were tokin abt normal stuffx.. jeex. ii suggest tt she kills all e males on this earth. ii m out!

HAPPY BURFDAE TA CYNTHIA&PEARLYNN!! =D

holis in. schl out.

2005-05-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

holidaes r in fer a month. schl is out. its gonna be a bz holidae ii guess. ii will jus be stuck at hum with tons of werk ta do nd ma tuitions r starting. ma results jus suck! ii m gonna buck up during this june hopefully. ii wanna hit twn nd e beach. ii wanna catch sum shows w ma buddies. ma sugarush will be out of town.boohoo!! =( ii m gonna miss eu soo soo much. went ta causewae ta eat. ii gedding sick of tt place.. ii almost everydae go thr as its nearest ta ma huse , ii wnt be hum late nd ma mum wnt hunt mii dwn w her million calls. =/ BUT ii had a pretty gud dae w eu. spending mre mre tyme 2geda. making us so much closer nd stronger. =)) ii m dead beat. -yawn- plannin ta go queenswae tml w ma suga rush ta ged ma sis her burfdae prezzie. buh byess! =D ii had fallen in love with this song. out of reach by gabrielle.

road.relay

2005-05-27T20:03:00.000+08:00

Time really flies. Now we are already heading to june holidays. Half of the year..let me see..ermm..road relay.parents-teacher 'night'. did my SC duty. god, my results are just horrible. i am just so ashamed of myself. i have to put in xtra effort for end year.i am very upset about something which has got to do with the level position.boy, am i glad to have a good chat with nie today. it has been such a long tyme hur sista? anyway, i went out after my mum took my report book.sent my mum to school gate for her to go home. i went to causeway ta eat. yups.met nie. she is cute! and we walked home,to my house. :) things are much better now i suppose. i really hope to catch up with my friends esp. gang green gang nd tumtus. i will. tommorrow i will be having debate half day camp at civic centre with rethinam,stephanie,kenny. nayana huryy come back from india!! so you can be with me during debate. buh byes!! good luck to those people studyin for Os!!

fs gone.

2005-05-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

guys, ii had cancelled ma frenster acc. so yea wnt be able ta write eu animre testimonials. sorrii. niwae, if tts e wae of showing loyalty, ii will go all e wae.

napfa test

2005-05-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

had napfa test 2dae. was almost late fer schl. shikin looked sooper blurr abt napfa test todae. ii guess she tot we r havin sum event at sch cuz napfa 2dae is onlii ferr e sec.1,2,3&some sec4s. shikin is such a cutie! =D niae, ii guess ii sumhw did badly ferr e test compared ta last yr. wanted ta watch interclass soccer boys but 3/1 against 3/4 starts at 12! it was onlii like 11 so yea decided ta accompany glenda ta jurong library. nicest library in sg so far. it wasnt crowded. e youth floor was cool. real relaxing thr plus eu can eat inside!!. no librarians walkin arun. soo manyy cushions!! mayb at tt tyme wasnt crowded. ii lied dwn thr nd read. almost fell aslp. =/ ii saw a couple kissing while they were lying dwn. god. miie nd glenda were lyk cudnt-help-staring lolss. niwae, went bck ferr sc meeting at 2. ii was abt ta be late. moreeva ii dropped at wrng bustop. e one b4 schl bustp. toopid miie.nd ii wasnt late...nd ferr sc investiture iim in charged of concert soo yeahh ppl if eu guys wanna perform lett miie noe ya?? =) after meeting went ta plaza ta eat red ruby. =p tts all. ps: congrats ta 3/1 nd 3/4!!

bck.

2005-05-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

iim updated ferr lynne,shikin,berls,theresa nd anly. btw anly eu dirty woman ii went ferr REAL tuition! XD. ii did okk..god. this week hasnt been so pleasant due ta ma results nd ytd incident. ma results r juss horriblee esp amths&physics. xcept ferr ss. ii hate em! chem ii passed. 60.5!! ii was contented cox ii failed ma ca chem by pathetic 4 marks. jeex ii jus hope on ma report card everithing is diff. tt wud be a miracle. niwae, ytd ii had 300grams of famous amos double choco cookies all by maself! extremely pleased. niwae, ii had soo much in ma mind ta penn dwn bt nw -poof- all gone. =/ ii do miss eu. loads. but ii hav ta be lyk this&sorry.

ss

2005-05-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

damn! ii cudnt control maself. ended up using e com. didnt go ol tho. jus check e blogs. SS e source-based was a KILLER! ii was absolutely clueless. but e essay was managble. slpt ferr 2 hrs onlii ytd nd ii was lyk kinda slpy durin e ss paper. =X ii studied e eu nd woa! ii gt all 3 or 4 chapters installed ma head within 1 hr? =)) extremely pleased. had a sooperr gud dae..haven reallii dne heavy studyin ferr emaths. tmr emaths paperr 1..ma maths . itss jus horriblee.buh bye!!

last post b4 mid yr.

2005-05-07T22:06:00.000+08:00

last post till b4 nd after ma mid yr papers. plus ma com gt virus nd all ma precious files r lost again.freak. ii hate this. ii m realli anxious abt e papers..everione seems ta b soo hardwerkin nd smart...guud luck pdc-ians nd 3/1 nd those ppl who ii noe!! =)) ii m dying ferr shoppin..cnt wait till e papers r dne..=D ii gotta FOCUS ND STUDYYY!!! Im nt putting enuff effort. ii noe..=/ ii dunnoe y nd ii seem ta be nt able ta..=(( niwae, ii gtg..ii miss e guud oldd daes w ggg nd tumtus nd pdc-ians..honestly.

smudged

2005-05-02T13:23:00.000+08:00

sank into eu
like dye, like ink
don't tell me how to get out
i don't want to get out
smudged into eu.

iim losing iit

2005-04-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

ii m updating ferr anly,camool nd lynne..=)
ii hate e weather. its nt onlii hot but humid. making mii sticky all dae long. even after shower its still blarrdii hot..ii wanna install air con in ma bathroom nd on it nd shower..it wud definetly please mie.. iim gettin mre impatient w maself. sometymes ii jus aint happy w maself. mid yr are sooper near. in fact its rite smack in ma face! =X . ii m nt rdy. ii cnt seem ta sit still nd study. heck. ii nid motivation! ma aunt is here!! tho shes here ii haven reallii gt e tyme ta go out w her nd all.physics is gettin mre nd mre interestingg..=D.usually ii wud be in ma dreamland half wae e lesson. now ii m not!! ma amaths sux..okay..ta eu, ii reallii dunnoe wad ta do. but eu r e one nd e onlii one. eu gotta believe miie. niwae, iim off ta study..ii wnt b ol tt much bt even if ii do its ferr a while..nt tt iim studyin. =/ ii jus dun wanna cum online. tke care ppl!! ii hope it wud rain! a veryyy heavyy one!! ps: ii gotta thank tis special ladies ferr helpin mii w ma skirt...tina [sexy eight legged woman =D] tang huiyi, pearlynn,hilda nd shiiiyng!!! euu guys r e bestt!! =))

`bad dae.

2005-04-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

why? everything jus doesnt seem right. no, not seem. maybe not everithing. oh well, its jus another ordinary dae. ii m sorry.pls dun x ovr e limits. anelie,iim makin tyme ger. ii cnt wait ferr e guud old daes. ii dunnoe e future. ii dunnoe wad will cum. but ii aint afraid of it.

food fiesta

2005-04-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

ytd was food fiesta. ta mii it wasnt a success..there were mre assumptionites than outside ppl. alot of old ppl. =XX LOL. e stalls were crammedd, hectic nd e some of e food wasnt guud..sum were jus INEDIBLE! sry. no offence. but o well, cnt complain cuz tis is ferr charity ya? =) e weather was jus blazing hot! but 3/1 stall e chicken cutlet wasnt tt bad!! errmm...yeh..4/2 nd 4/4? e tom yam souup..mmmm...delicious! -thumbs up- e spaghetti wasnt tt bad. ii lyk e ice pop e plum one onli! =D ii managed ta sell all e st.joseph tix!! hahhax..=)).enuf guud deeds ta go heaven.? LOL. crapp. niwae, went bck arun 4+. eu came ta fetch mii. nd thr went toruble. iim soorryy.. of all e tyme it had ta happen at tt point! stoopidd. but trust mii pls. 2dae, might as well dun go schl. bio mt nd english. ii onlii had 1 period. wth. y cnt they jus call e dae off? e students dun learn much aso. niwae, eu tke care!!! ii noe ur hand is injured during pe nd gt stitches...jeex...be careful nxt tyme..=) ii love ya!!

`miss 2004

2005-04-16T09:57:00.000+08:00

ii m okayy..hhahax..so unlike of mii ta b usin com early in e morning! its onllii 9!! lolx..aster came bckk..brandon happyy..glad ta c em both 2geda. nvm abt tt..ii wan DWIT ta cum back!! ii wanna c her!! ii wan gang green gang ta go out 2geda again like we used ta! ii wan e tymes back! ii wan pdc back,gang green gang nd tumtus back, nd annie bck in ma class!!! boohooo!! ii miiss eu guys :(((((

`hais

2005-04-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

HAIXX..haixx...iim sooper dwn..stomach pain. freak. supposed ta hav a gud dae. but it didnt turn like ii wanted ta b. hell.

`moments in lyfe

2005-04-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

MOMENTS IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one,
which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human and
enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

Don't count the years-count the memories...........

www.PravsWorld.com

iim updated ferr e sake of lynne ma armtoucher nd anelie [a piece of dung] =Pp hahhax..dun hav anithin in ma mind ta write so yea didnt update la. nd pls ii aint bz goin ferr dates! niwae,firstly thanks alane ferr e advices on e song thingy! saw sista nie at wdlands mrt wen ii was w him!! hahahx...sista its nt tt ii dun regonise eu. ii was jus damn blurr nd wasnt xpectin eu ta c eu thr since tt dae was cca dae! ii saw ur hubby ferst..den looked arun den saw eu! hahhax..=D lovely surprise ta c eu thr! =)) niwae, tml chem test!! jeex iim scared...ii understand wad e book tok abt but wen it cums ta test ques iim fcukin lost! =X iim sooper scared la..stumbled upon e above poem. was in ma mail box nd yeahh put up here. ta ma suga honey pie ferr tml! thank eu ferr makin mii laugh w ur retarded jokes nd all. =D ii lurfee ya!! mucckkxx...=)

60405

2005-04-06T19:36:00.000+08:00

change of skin AGAIN. hhahax..wen ii came oline nowdaes nth interestin ferr mii ta do so jus kip changin skins. XD...niwae, ii am okayy guys!! shakey thank eu! ii was surprised.=)) tons of sch werk ta do. NE poject,CME project,many tests cumin up, soo much humwerk. nd wad m ii doin here?? shiit. tml deadline ferr NE project nd ma grp hasnt even dne a single thing yet. =X
lynne came ta touch ma arm nd said hii while ii was at study area after schl.=) at ferst ii was lyk sooper blur..nd ma reaction was kinda slow ii guess. =/.interviewed mr keh.it was a pleasure realli. ii learnt quite a lot of things..ii noe eu guys r tinkin tt iim nuts or something or ur eyebrow is alreadii up! hhahax...but true ta admit tt he aint tt bad actually..mayb esometimes he jus tend ta becum over strict larhx..tml physic..filmin frm NIE. ii wanna hit ta twn soon. shoppin is in ma mind rite nw..=Pp ..

HAPPY BELATED BURFDAE TA DAVINA!

`agitated.

2005-04-05T18:17:00.000+08:00

ta sum ppl whu read ma blog.
pls dun b fcukin paranoid! argghh!! sryy ferr ma lang.
.ii m jus soopperr pissed nd agitated!!! ii feel soo hopeless,shattered nd
ii guess ii m givin up..
everiting xcept studies. tellin eu e truth aso eu dun wanna believe.
wads e point? =((((

`thx

2005-04-03T20:01:00.000+08:00

thank eu soo much guys ferr ur concern nd all. ii appreciate it lotx. ((: ii am pretty much
okayy now. hugsss ta anelie,pat,lynne,glenda,nayana,
shiiying. thanks again!!

`lost it all

2005-04-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

` ii hab lost it all. at least ii tink i had.
`ii will be fine ferr nw bt e pain will cum.
`ii had enuff. no mre of this stuffx.
`ii mux b strong.
`its normal ii guess.

=(((

`love eu

2005-04-01T18:24:00.001+08:00

a new skin again. ii reallii gt nth betta ta do nd feelin sick yeah so changed ta tis black skin.ma body is freakin hot!! sometimes ii wanna rip maself into two so ii can please all e ppl.. eu, schl werk,cca,frens nd ma parents. .ii jus hope eu understand.. ii love eu so much. pls dun doubt mii..ii ged pissed wen eu say those things.ii dun wanna fight. ii noe eu can ged paranoid sometimes BUT pls trust mii okies? ii will b updatin soon again. tc ppl! ((:

2005-03-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

ii lost it again. ma folks r gettin on ma nerves. nd iim dying. mayb nt dying bt. ii jus surviving.

`gud fridae.holidae.

2005-03-25T13:08:00.000+08:00

wahahas. ii hab gt nth much ta update abt.ii `m worried nw. paranoid at tymes. niwae, anelie iim fine. jeex.. eu r lyk ma mama. hahahhax..XD ..but ii appreciate ur concern ya? =)) . `nd boss, pls b decisive!! mux think carefully nd stop jokin arun!! `nd dun forged ta raise ma salary. hahhass okiess? =p
tke care ppl nd hav e guud long weekend.
ii `m outt!
lurffe eu..=)

``french cmoon test

2005-03-22T21:01:00.000+08:00

ii flunked ma french test!! it was freakin hard!! ii didnt study properly niwae. ii deserved it if ii fail. =(( iim tryin ta open up ta ma mum mre. hopefully tt will be a gud thing. haix. niwae, nth much happened. iim gettin paranoid sumhw sometymes. wadeva cums along, ii will be fine.

`debate dae 1

2005-03-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

ii gt ma billabong top!! nw iim broke..=X niwae, went ferr e CDC debate whole dae werkshop. Conducted by s'pore debate association. cool. e facilitators r soopperrr young pls. esp e ripcurl guy. nice name he has. curlina? no. wait ii forgt. lolx. hes like sooperr pro. ii admire em. hhahax..den anther pro who is e captain of s'pore debate team. wowww!! hahhax..still young. den michelle, vishya [dunnoe hw ta spell.],paul,samuel,howard. niwae, ii went thr w nayana, rethinam nd ms.phay. she stayed a while den left. manyy schl. woodgrove.farjar.marsiling.admiraty.nanyang.hwa chong.st.marg.chestnut.westspring. mre mre...cnt recall nw. damnx! mii reth nd nayana felt soo small la cuz most of e students r somehw frm debate team in their sch nd they noe hw ta tok like a real debater nd all.. we r lyk sooperr helpless.=/ bt we will try! we shall werk hard!.so thr is a competition in june. support us pls!! =D
e werkshop was frm 9am - 5pm. hahahhax...while ii was waitin ferr reth at e admiralty mrt, ii wanted go toilet nd guess wad? ii almost went ta e guys one!!!! -blush- ii was freakin blur...till e aunty at e toilet sae.."SAYANG! wher eu goin?!?! tts is male!! " hahhax..nayana pulled mii bck in tyme..man ii am bluur..=XX ...nd oo ya...reth was v furrnnii like usual.. hahahx..he was jus sayin this..." o this is ma ferst tyme in ma lyfe seeing tt thr r shops at overhead bridge!!" hhahax..he was lyk lil boii gettin xcited..hhahax..yeah..bt true..ma ferst tyme aso at admiralty. over thr everiiwhr gt shops..den fell aslp in 963 till nayana woke mii up sayin reth sae bye bye..lolx..den after a while ii reached hum.shower. dinner. nd ii m gonna call eu soon. late at nitex. hopefully we wnt fight again. ii mean we r jus soo furrnii la. we fight den after 30 mins we r bck ta sopper normal again.=) hahhax..we made a deal nt ta fight 2nitex..kay..take care ppl. ii haven dne anii humwerk yet.iim DEAD. X/

`live twice

2005-03-17T10:32:00.000+08:00

Don't leave nowNot yetThere were time we regretAnd I'm sorrySomehowI onlyWanted to make you proudIf I could only let you knowI'd give up everything I ownFor just one more day with youThere's nothing I wouldn't doI could not let it pass me byIf I make every sacrificeTo bring me back your loveIf only we could live twiceIf only we could live twiceWhen you told meI frozeIt still echoesIn my soulPlease forgive meIf I didn't sayI love youEvery single dayIf I could only let you knowI'd give up everything I ownFor just one more day with youThere's nothing I wouldn't doI could not let it pass me byIf I make every sacrificeTo bring me back your loveIf only we could live twiceIf only we could live twiceNobody told me we'd only get one chanceI didn't know that our tide would turn so fastWhy we have to say goodbye I don't understandIf I could only let you knowI'd give up everything I ownFor just one more day with youThere's nothing I wouldn't doI could not let it pass me byIf I make every sacrificeTo bring me back your loveIf only we could live twiceI could not let it pass me byNothing I give to sacrificeTo bring me back your loveIf only we could live twiceIf only we could live twiceWe'll meet in another lifeIf only we could live twice.

`haixx

2005-03-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

heck. its alreadii 10:10:20 pm. nth. is it jus ma hp? guess ii was in e mood of writing testimonials eh? ii wrote fer soo manii ppl. tis is werid. had soo much fun w anelie nd shiying. 2dae is e TUMTUS DAE!! ii lovee e both of euu soo much...take care. peace.m ii being stoopid ta care? maybe ii am.

`wed alone

2005-03-16T10:18:00.000+08:00

supposed ta b in sch nw ferr maths consultation bt iim goin laterr w shiying. after tt meet up w anelie nd go lot 1 ta eat den dey will b cumin ovr ta do maths. yeapx. iim home alone nw nd stuck in frnt of e com tho ii aint doin anitin xcept ferr listenin ta songs..e same song being played over nd over again. holidae isnt doin anii guud ta mii. iim gaining weight.-screams!!- hhahax..jus eat eat eat..=/ planned ta go twn w tina ferr shoppin bt cudnt make it la..niwae iim nt soo loaded so anthr dae la tina aiight? srryy..ii quarelled w eu ytd AGAIN. mayb it was ma fault. ii pushed things too hard. eu were pms-in too nd jealous till like tt. kk..bt we r okayy nw.. ii still love eu..=))

`iim kay.

2005-03-15T19:25:00.000+08:00

ii m kay.ii m FINE. thank eu anelie.=)) lurf ya!

`heck

2005-03-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

is it juss mii or eu?!? r eu jus being sopper sensitive or over protective like anelie said??? ii jus dun ged it!! nd its gettin on ma nerves la pls!! one ting ii noe..ii do lurffe eu...nd euu kip sayin those freakin remarks!! =(((....iim angry at e same tyme ii wan ta cry...no ii shall nt cry..tis aint mii..

`flagdae

2005-03-13T15:01:00.000+08:00

yes, ii changed e skin AGAIN. didnt reallii comfy w e previous one. hahax..nw holidaes is in!! bad nd good. mondae-free. tuesdae- go unity sec. wed-amaths consultation. thursdae-werk at bird park w lynn!! fri & sat-go admiralty pri ferr debate camp. sundae-werk!! gt a job while doin flagdae ytd! lolx..w lynnx..hehex..zhiyung saw wad he shudnt while he was doin flagdae at bukit batok!! 3/1-ers noe wad iim tokin abt..=Pp long tyme nvr update..yeahh..ii flunked ma common test!! =X gonna werk hard during holi..ii will...ii m in e mood of shoppin! eu left ferr s'pore! boooooohooo!! =((

ii dun feel e same wo eu here..b bck soon plss!! eu called while ii was doin flagdae..ii was soopperr happii pls..=)) nd while ii was at ikea eu called again..hahahax..reached hum nd damn! eu called while ii was in showerr..ii wasnt able ta pick up. =/ frm den no call yet..iim waitin..ytd flagdae was goood w anelie,shiiying,tina nd pearlynn..hahhax..frm boonlay ta bukit panjang den ta woodlands again..one thing ii can tell: BUKIT PANJANG PPL ARE VERII GENEROUS!! thank euu!! =) supposed ta go ta acs barker carnival bt didnt go cuz no mood.niwae eu wnt b thr.so went ta ikea w ms.phay w anelie,shiying,donald,lynn,xinrong,zhiyung,tina..had fun..=D ...take care ppl!!

`common test.

2005-03-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

ii m TOTALLY flunkin` ma common tests!! esp.physics! nightmare. gve up ferr tis round. cnt help. =X left w chem which is tml. french `nd amaths..argghh!! ii m scared...=// ii niid helpp plss!!

`sigh

2005-02-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

HAIIXX...mayb ii m too serious lerx..euu mean soooo much ta mii...srryy..ii aint guud at werds..niwae,nie systa eu lookin sooo fine!! =))

angel nd suga pie

2005-02-27T12:48:00.000+08:00

ta shakey whu has been ma angel ferr all this while.thank eu! ii still wan eu ta b one. e angel whu alwaes watches over mii. nt jus an angel bt best of pal. bt if tis ends up hurtin eu den its alritex..ii understand cuz ii dun wan eu ta ged hurt. but eu will alwaes be someone special! =)

ta honey pie..ii love eu!! ii m missin eu ritex nw!!

`moron

2005-02-26T10:04:00.000+08:00

iim updatin now. soo manyy weird things happened..ii dunnoe whus e MORON whu went ta tok ta ms.phay sayin all those BULLSHIT which arent true. dun eu hab betta things ta do? is ur lyfe soo free tt eu mux destruct others hur? ged a lyfe plss!! HECK EU MORON! wadeva. niwae, ms.phay nd 3/1 r nw back ta normall!! yay!! hahhax..guud newss!! we were v sad ferr e past 2 daes? yes. we opened up w each other..tt helps alot.=)) didnt go ta schl on fri..omg! ferst tyme la plss..LOLX...slight fever den overslpt..woke up at 7.3o!! den ma mum sae tke mc...ferst tyme la pls...okayy..niwae,ii jus rot at hum...went out at nitex w ma mum..we tok abt loads of stuffx...she was in a gud mood ii guess..ii sumhw opened up some things ta her.NT totally..dropped some hints la..bt iim sure she didnt ged it. she didnt seem ta niwae. common tests r on mondae nd ii haven done anii serious studies yet! freak. its like nt in e mood. yes ii noe its wrng bt okayy ii shud do study!! bye!

ps: yes ii changed e skin again. cuz ii wan black skin bt cnt fidn ani tt ii lyk soo ii ended w this which isnt so bad xcept e song. ii mean ii m sumhw sick of this besutifool soul which ii hear at least 1 tyme a dae. ii wann ta put other stuff mayb nt video. bt ma song codes dont seem ta werk.hell. niwae, tts all.

life goes on

2005-02-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Life Goes On...

In every human life,theer are some moments when one is sad and depressed

Frustrated from every zone of life,

And feel like leaving everything & going away

And Life Goes on ...

Some moments in which one is wrapped with tensions one wants to get out of them and fly high in the sky

But cant run away, and life goes on ...

Some moments in which,one who adores hurts sentiments,one needs a support, a shoulder to dry on,

But doesnt find one , and life goes on ...

Some moments in which one gets tired of life or so intensely hurt that one wants to dieone wishes to end up with life at that very moment, and life goes on ...

And in every human life on day arrives

When there is a big halt to one's life.

And then the people cryand show that they were concerned

Then the question arises:

Do they wait for one's death,

To care, To understand the oneIf so, then wait till death and untill then

LIFE GOES ON ...

www.PravsWorld.com

2005-02-20T14:22:00.000+08:00

iim soorriii!!!! ii mean ii aint hidin anitin frm eu sweetheart!! haixx..=(( omg..haixx..plss stop tokin like tt..ii wasnt even tokin ta anione.honest.iim sufferrin lyk hell.

haix

2005-02-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

HAIX...=((. hell. ii hab gt nth ta sae. anelie ger thank eu soo much ferr listenin ta mii 2dae. johnston, ur crap. it made mii laugh. thanks.

2005-02-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

ferst..thankss shakey ferr e skin..=) its sweet bt ii aint sweet pls..=p well aniwae,ma rite hand hurts. mayb ii exerted too much force jus on ma rite hand.=X btw,HAPPII VALENTINE'S DAE ta everiione!! srryy...its belated. thank eu ferr e prezzie nd all. =)). esp.e brownie tt shakey baked.appreciated it lots. niwae, nth much happened. went ferr ed.board meetin nd late ferr band. discussed e ques which r ta b asked ta mr.keh during interview. one questions goes lyk this. .."do eu hab anithin against short skirts??!?" hahhax..rethinam ques was lyk this..."mr.keh y r eu soo sexii yet out of shape at e same tyme!?! " hahhahax...=D ani idea wad eu guys wanna ask?? charmaine,ger thx ferr e oreocheese cake!! hahahx..its a heavenly sin. oo well,shall stop here. gotta ta study physics. sooper blur on reflection e picture nd all.=X take care ppeepss..ii lurffe ma honey suga pie! =)

`burnin

2005-02-13T11:02:00.000+08:00

iim lookin ferr a nice nd simple skin pls!! cnt find one till nw. tis is too much..iim lyk so stressed nowadaes!! dun ask mii why. cuz its complicated. ii hope ii will survive thru. hopefully. its all thanks ta eu! y do ii kip comparing?! like this ii wil nvr noe hw ii feel. oh hell. niwae, thanks ta imran,kris,nigel nd anelie ferr listenin ta mii..eu guys were a BIG help. =))..shakey thanks ferr e call..ii nided tt nd eu called mii at e ryte tyme...niwae,ii m burnin!! tts all ii can sae.

lala

2005-02-08T19:54:00.000+08:00

ferst ii hab no idea y on earth ma skin is nt werkin..mayb e server dwn? shall ii change e skin? crappx..e new yr plan everiithin turned out well.=) thank eu ta all e SCs nd e planners..srryy if thr was anii miscommunication..niwae..8stars!! hahhax...after e celebration..debrief nd all...went ta kap w shiiying nd mark..woooohooo!! hehhex..guess whu we met...ma sista,nie nd her dearie!! soo cute la pls both of em!! she was lyk smilin nd smiling ahh..hahhahax...=D happii ferr e both of eu..niwae,didnt stayed at kap ferr long cuz iim leavin ferr twn fer sum reason..lalala...=))..lolx...was waitin ferr 171 alone den saw nigel nd yeekit..he sendin her off ta e bus..den he went bck ta kap again..lolss..niwae, reached twn..somethin cropped up so ii jus went bck hum..bt eu r forgiven..hahahx..eu owe mii one!! =D.bt b4 ii went hum..ii decided ta drop by at pat's werkplace..too bad she wasnt in wen ii went thr..=(...btw,thx a lot shakey!! ii seriously dunnoe wad ta sae...its beautifool...=)) -hugs- nd ii gt lotx of chocos pls 2dae!! wahhahx...slpt thruout e dae at hum..jus chill aftr such suppperr loooooonnnngggg weekk..niwae, hab a fabuloso week pp nd happii chinese new yr!!!

x-country

2005-02-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

xcountry 2dae at mcritchie...didnt runn..plain lazii nd chose ta do duty..hehhex..nxt yr will run since it will b e last..sec.1 didnt run..ii was dwn w flu..sec.2 did duty..sec3 duty..=Pp ......a BIG nd HEARTY congrats ta 3/1!!! welll doonne guys!!! esp. ta e stars!!CHARMAINE,LIYING,LIYI,CALVIN,NIGEL,
MARK,IMRAN, ZHIYUNG!!! [ii hope ii didnt miss out anione..]wooohoooo!!! we won both champion ferr gurls nd guys!! nd yeah ta KENRICK HO!!! heyyy iim surprised..it was totally unxpected!! guuud jobb!!proud of ya brudderr!! kiip it up!!!iim totally pleased..=) btw,those whu think tt eu didnt do welll..its alritex...at least eu went out thr nd run!! dun b demoralised!! niwae,shall we dance? its a show nt ta b missed! go nd watch it...its inspirin at e same ta can make eu laugh..=D ....

`plannin

2005-02-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

okaayy..finally gt a chance ta blog..srryy guys ferr e past few daes cuz ma com broke dwn nd thx ta ma dad! =X he reformatted e com..den nw e com will shut dwn every nw nd den...it happened b4...e hard disk gt scratches nd it cost $200+ pls!! niwae,nw usin ma dad's laptop...hes in overseas ryte nw..durin these few daes,nth much went on...jus v bz w ma schl werk nd chinese new yr plannin!! nd iim worn out...everythin is doin well...alvin did a SUPERB job!! shiying..shes has been a BIG help nd ii mean BIG!! weesern thx ferr runnin arun ta conduct e things!! tina eu gerll ur art is BEAUTIFOOL!!! ii seriously had a gud tyme werkin w eu guys tho we had gaps nd mishaps!! chheerrss!! =D ii hope everitin will run smoothly on e real dae..=) congrats ta e b gers[bballers]!! jia you!! eu guys can doo itt!! nie,sista iim supportin eu frm ma french class!! hahhax..niwae,ii gt nth much ta sae animre...anelie tke care babe!! tml x-country!! 3/1 doo ur best aiight?? till nw iim missin 2/1 loads!! strawberry milkshaey thankss eu soo much ferr everitin!! hhahax....=p happii chinese new yrr!! [in advance since ii might nt b able ta blog in a few daes tyme] damnnn!!! ii cnt go ta FRANCE ferr xchange prgramme!!!! cux ii aint a singaporean!!! ii m dyin ta go...thr will b a family host nd all...freakk!!! ii m v upset abt it..=(...big chance nd ii miss it...mayb ii will ask ma dad ta call e ministry!! =/ muhahhax...okiexx...iim kinda reallii dwn 2dae cuz of sum reasonss...haixx...niwae,take care ppl...dun get sick..=)

`tuesdae bliiiiss

2005-01-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPII BURFFDAE TA IMRAN!!!
tuesdae!!! one of e most tiring daes..schl wasnt tt bad 2dae actuallii. had ma emaths test..went pretty well. Got baq ma physics test!! it was horribbllee!! iim tokin abt ma mark..ii jus passed pls..=( 12.5/25 ...gt ta buck up la. kinda boredd in class after recess cuz glenda `nd nasrix e jokers were gone ferr their ncc thingy! damn! ms.phey changed nasri seat! gonna b borring!! bt at least nw tina sittin beside mii..=) afterr schl...dragged maself ta bishan ferr class...waited at e bustop ferr tt 171 pls! by e tyme i reached bishan i onlii left w 30mins ta eat nd walked ta schl..=X rushed all e wae...french class...quite borriin...forget lots of things...ii hab nt been goin ferr classes regularly...=/ we had new classmate 2dae..wad his name again..errmmm...maxime..hes a french...nw in yusof ishak..hes kinda friendly..=) arghhh!! lotx of smartass in class alreadii nd NOW a french student..okayy...i cna imagine ma position goin dwn! booooo!!! ii tired...still haven studied ferr chem test tml..ii yearn ta at least catch a movie..i suppose hitch is gonna b a hilarious show! its quite long since i caught a last mviee nd ii hab nt been watchin tv since schl started!! tis is gettin craziii!! ...nid ta take a break sumhw...nd pls ma dad is drivin mii nuts too!! ii tink sumhw hes expectin mii ta study 24hr...doenst even let mii go online...sayin tt its a waste of tyme!! tts a absolute bullshiitt pls!! =X ritex nw goin online is e onlii thing tt somehw relaxes mii...anelie nd sy thankk euu soo much ferr walkin mii hum e other dae!!! thanks!! mucckkkxx...=D take care! oo yeahh..almost forgett..2dae during eng..soo fun la...we gt ta write a lurffe stry...this is e stry tt mii,pearl nd liying created...

HUIYI was a normal gal whus studyin medicine at oxford university...one dae after her lecture she bumped into MARK! nd she was completely head over heels w him! it was lurffe at ferst sight! but too bad...mark gt his own girlfren whom he wud nvr betray...nd there was this guy whos CHING LIANG whu has been secrtly in lurffe w huiyi ferr 5 yrs alreadii...knowin tt huiyi lurfes mark, he decided ta tke a chance nd proposed ta her! Reluctantly she agreed ta e proposal as she knew mark wud nvr return her feelings...booohooo!! den ching liang nd huiyi gt married....after 5 yrs...they hab 10 children!!!!!

hahahhax...e class was roarin w laughter pls after ii read out e stry!! hheheexx...byee!!

`sad.dwitx left

2005-01-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

change of skin again.nt a new one bt yeah..since ii came ta use e com nd gettin bored w it..jus do some messin up w ma blog..fridae went ta hab a farewell lunch w dwitx,rui,wenhao,kenry,nie,mii,yi,ying,yeewen,pearl,anelie,huiyi,char,nigel,calvin,kristo..ii tink there were lyk 15 of us...went ta plaza.e onlii place which is near nd since we dun hab tt much tyme..we jus ate at sakura..it was fun!! soo mani of us larh pls!! =D all of us in a rush..cuz dwitx nided ta go bck ta pack nd ii nid ta b bck ta study ferr ma test...den went ta e fountain place..took photos...hugged dwitx nd left ferr hum..e rest went ta twn!! i cudnt go..=X booooo!!everityme alwaes ii cnt go cuz of somethin...dey sendin dwitx off ta airport aso nd i cudnt join all thanks ta e test!! verii sad...dwitx has gone..e one whus alwaes bubbly nd readii ta go out e mii anytime...ma frens jus kip leavin ferr other places=((....ii miss eu babe!!! take care nd hab fun in aussie!! hope ii will c eu soon in melbourne! btw,donald ii dun mind eu joinin ferr lunch w us..nd ii simply gt nth against eu..ii dunnoe y dey said tt we dun lyk eu!! niwae, its gud tt eu came ta ask mii...if nt sure gt misunderstandin...oo weell..still haven do any of ma humwerk yet...tml ss test..wed : chem. ii somehw wish ii cud turn bck e tyme nd undo ma mistakes...ii noe this sound toopid...bt yeahh...pat thx ferr e strawberry shake!!! hahhahx..=))..eu guys take care...again..ii miss dwitx lotx!! =(

srryyy!!!

2005-01-18T19:54:00.000+08:00

ii m truly sorryy..ii hab ma own reasons...=((....jus tke it tt iim selfish...=(( ii noe nth can b done...hope eu understand..hiaxx..niwae, iim exhausted...gt tons of werk ta do!! e teachers asked us ta relax nd den y r we havin humwerk ferr almost all e subjects?!?! manii tests aso cumin up....if anione came ta tok ta mii nd if ii ignored u or sumtin..srryy kk? ii jus kept worryin abt soo mani thingss...reallii no mood ta tok...iim tryin v hard ferr everithing...niwae,tese r e pics tt ii took wen ii was on holidae!! nw den gt tyme la..